就算这篇文章给我带来的只有让我知道了“Saudade”这个词，它也会在我脑中铭记数年。我之前不知道这种感觉还有名字。If the only thing this article did was introduce me to the word "Saudade", then it would still stick in my head for years. I didn't know this feeling had a word.
我先读了一遍这篇文章，并没有多加思考。出于某种原因，我又回来读了一遍，几小时后读了第三遍。然后我决定认真地花点时间查查标题的意思。I read this once and thought nothing of it. I came back to it for some reason and read it again, then a third time a few hours later. Then I decided to actually take the time to look up what the title meant.
这种感觉就是怀恋。这正是那种感觉，未加稀释的。你知道做到这一点有多难吗？那是回忆和幻想和感觉无法阐释的古怪混合，要准确地记录下来无比困难。This is that feeling of saudade. This is that feeling exactly, undiluted. Do you know how hard it is to do that? It's this weird inexplicable mix of memory and fantasy and feeling, and it's so hard to pin down what it is.
它受到了控制，被抑制住了。它受到了引导，渴望着跟从。它精致透明，几乎难以存在。可是它又这么不可否认地在那。It's under control, it's repressed. It's being guided, it's longing to follow. It's diaphanous, it barely exists. But it is so irrevocably there.
这篇文章是一场梦，某人怀恋之感的现实呈现。它是ticonderoga，因为不然还能是什么呢。八百七十亿碎块，好一个记忆与感觉的迷宫！多难逃脱。所有的描述都是这样。难以描述的模糊，强调着古怪的东西，永远不会停止上浮。这些有趣的概念、细节和感受与你同在，好难钉下，总会让你怀想起再也见不到的爱人。当然还有进一步的研究，你可以沉溺在这感情之中，因为这是你仅剩的关于爱人的一切了。This article is a dream, the manifestation of someone's feeling of saudade. It's ticonderoga, because how else can it be. Eighty seven billion pieces, what a labyrinth of memory and feeling! How impossible to escape. All the descriptions are like this. Elusive and vague with odd things emphasized that never quite stop floating up. These funny notions, details, feelings, living within you, so hard to pin down, that always remind you of your beloved that you will never see again. Of course there's further research, you could drown in the feeling, because it's all you have left of what you love.
而感觉就像你和你的爱人，一同旋转向某处远得几乎看不见的地方，在那怀旧的面纱之后。And it feels like you and your beloved, twirling together somewhere almost too far away to see, behind a veil of nostalgia.
它不应该是这样的。我想这篇文章值得更高的评价。这是你会读到的那种发布于十年前，得分有+231的文章，它永远、永远不会离开你的记忆。而我也欢迎它的陪伴。如果它最后被down删了，其实是不应该的，那至少它的主题是合适的。我们也不能永远这么旋转下去。It shouldn't go down like this. I think this article deserved better. It's the kind of article that you'd find with a score of +231 posted a decade ago that will never, ever leave your mind. I'd welcome the company. If it does go down, and it shouldn't, then that's at least thematically fitting. We can't twirl forever.
“时间将我消耗。”